I can teach my kids lessons all day long. However when it comes down to looking into the mirror, it isn’t that easy. What’s hard is when they catch you saying one thing, and doing another. Recently I experienced this when I didn’t get a job that I wanted.
My mantra with my kids is “you are where you are supposed to be” which is a great one particularly when things are down. You don’t feel like you’ve lost because if you believe this, you know that life has taken you (or not taken you) somewhere for a reason.
Last week I experience this when I decided that I would use my yoga certification and interview for my first yoga position here in California that entailed working at a large gym, teaching a earthy crunchy class of 60. Crazy right? Why not stand on the sidewalk and yell out “I am new at what I do and I probably suck, want to see?” Realistically I should have found a position teaching a handful of students or bring friends into my home for a class.
“Yeah that’s good” the class organizer yelled out at the club interview. “I’ve seen enough.”
She wanted to see variety, technique, and flow in ten to fifteen minutes. So after being stopped half way through for a question, I choked! I stood frozen looking into the mirror, willing myself to remember my next asana.
“Come back in two weeks after you have worked on your flow and let’s see if we can get you into a class” she instructed me.
When I got home my daughter studied my face for clues. She looked directly into my eyes.
“How did it go?”
I wanted to cry, maybe even jump up and down and hold my breath in a tantrum. Then I wanted to sling myself onto the couch and bury my head into the pillows, but I couldn’t. I was a mother.
“Fine” I replied.
“Just fine, she loved me and wanted me back in two weeks after I tweaked a few of my moves.”
“So you bombed.”
“Yup and it doesn’t bother me. Deep down I know that this is exactly where I am supposed to be, home practicing yoga until I am good enough to get out and try it again.”
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